5 years. That's how long it has been since I've written. A lot has happened in 5 years. I graduated nursing school, moved to the Gulfcoast, got a divorce, lost my great grandmother, lost my father, started working on my masters, got remarried, changed jobs, had another baby, and a lot of smaller things in-between. I reread my old posts, back when life was much simpler, when I was an externally happy, empty shell. It's amazing how complicated life can get when one begins to achieve true, undoctored happiness.
I am now co-parenting with my ex-husband. I'm doing the best I can with that. We both are. My husband is more helpful than I could have every asked for. He keeps me grounded, sane. I have my 5 year old daughter, and now a 6 week old daughter. If you've never heard that it is hardest going form 1 kid to 2, let me be the living proof of this. My oldest is having to learn how to share the attention, while my youngest is constantly needing to be fed, changed, entertained, or (briefly) sleep.
I am currently a year into my masters program. I plan to be an FNP by December 2019. I pushed back my graduation a year in order to take off this and next summer. A newborn, a kindergartener, and a full time job were not conducive to learning. This new class schedule will allow me to take the necessary classes to achieve a subspecialty in nursing education.
I worked ICU for 2 years, then L&D for 8 months, and now I am back to my roots in the ICU. I also moonlight on the vascular access team. I'm working much closer to home (30 minutes closer), which is a huge blessing!
My great grandmother passed away in October 2015. Then, my father passed away from unknown causes February 13, 2016. That caused a whirlwind of emotions, but more on that later.
So, as you can see, my life has gotten complicated and hectic, but I'm happy. In fact, I'm happier than I've ever been. I'm married to my best friend, my teammate, something I didn't think existed. I have an amazing support system made up of wonderful friends and my immediate family (they live within walking distance of me now). I love my job and am working towards my goals. God has blessed me with two beautiful, healthy daughters. I am truly grateful for all that I have.
So why are there moments when I can't stop crying?ᘂᗰ
